Marriage on the brink of Success?

Could it be???



If you are familiar with this blog you will know that my biggest issue right now is discipline, and

following in line with that I need to start getting up earlier and daily.

So I discussed this with hubby, and guess what!!! He agreed to get up with me!! I was so

excited, he wants to help me change, and is being supportive!

A little hard work, and determination really do pay off.

Discipline....GRRR

I add GRRR... because it's a very frustrating thing to know that you are just below what your own expectations are for yourself!

I have this image of what I think I should be like, and was recently told that I am too hard on myself. In fact I am the hardest person on myself....

I have been told this since I was a child....I get it!

So now my plan is to get a planner...hehe...and USE IT!

You see I clean homes for a living, well to correct that I clean one home a week. I was supposed to clean on Tuesday and it completely slipped my mind. I didn't end up going.

Luckily I did not lose my job, however I felt terrible. I could not believe that I forgot to go!

Now I am seriously going to get a planner and one of those dry-erase calendar's.

How do you stay organized and on schedule?

Continuation of previous post...

Okay so I was totally and utterly p**sed off earlier, and have since calmed down.

I would like to point out that hubby saying that I am not disciplined only P'ed me off because it's almost 100% true, very convicting, and totally something that I have to work on....

Adding also that when hubby said this I did not get totally p'ed off and throw a fit, (So VICTORY!!) and I did not fight with him (VICTORY #2)!!

Just pointing out some things that show God has already begun his work in my totally imperfect life!!
(AMEN!!!)

So in my journey to discipline I decided to call my mentor and explain firstly what happened and get her take on it....

I was not surprised at all when she said

CHOOSE

Which happens to be her favorite word, I am not kidding!!

(okay I am kidding, but it is her favorite advice and what great advice it is!!)

She said you have to first choose to be obedient to God's word, which says "Wives submit to your husband's" <---(that does not mean be a doormat AT ALL)

Submitting to hubby means I need to be disciplined....disciplined in his mind is being organized....

Organization=schedule

So thought process over....I need to make a schedule and stick to it.....

The schedule is still a work in progress, but once I figure it out I will post it!!

Hmmm....Lay down and Take it....

So I won't have another counseling session until August 18!!! AHHHH!!!!

My main goal right now is to home school my children because I feel and know that this is what God's will for our lives are. However my husband told me he has no faith in my being able to complete the task....

He says I have no work ethic....um....well there's obviously a reason for my lack thereof. Why does he think I chose to stay home with the kids!!!

It's not that I have no work ethic, it's that I've never had a role model of good work ethic, firstly....secondly I spent the first half of my life being a mother to my little brother, the second half being a mother to my little sister, and now my little brother lives with me again.....

So judging from my past...I would say I've been trained to do what I do...stay home with my children!!

Marital what???!!??

Today was the first day in my 4-8 week journey through marital counseling....which I am doing alone.

Hubby doesn't believe in counseling, nor does he believe in "mental" drugs, therefore I am trekking this journey alone. (Consistently praying he will choose to accompany me)

We discussed paperwork today, first meeting, wanted to make sure everything is clear...especially since it's $80/hour. I've heard good things about this counselor though, so high hopes!!

I will keep everyone posted on my progress...so far I've learned I have abandonment issues...so that's my goal...praying and working on abandonment issues as well as trust issues.

Pray for me please!

Frustrating Friendships

Have you ever been so confused about why someone you care for does something so blatantly bad for them? Or how someone could be so dis-respectful? Lie to your face? Make up stories? I have!

I have 2 good friends who consistently do this. For the sake of privacy I will change their names.

My first friend I am frustrated with is Hannah. Hannah lives about an hour away which makes it a little difficult to see eachother often, however when she needs me I am there. For instance last night she needed me at 9 PM so without a question or anything in return I jumped in my car and drove for an hour to pick her up and drive another hour home so she could get out of the situation she was in.

I am under the impression that the situation she is in is so bad that she wants to stay for awhile, obviously mistaken however because she had someone else pick her up a few minutes ago to take her back home. (This is not the first time this has happened so I know the following is untrue) She said that she would be back tomorrow evening.

I went to pick her up because she said that she didn't have any food, 2 guys tried to take advantage of her, she had no money, and all of her "friends" were taking advantage of her...a.k.a. walking all over her. I of course went to pick my starving abused friend up to give her a safe haven, all the while giving her advice about how she should not let her friends do such things...and that she really needed to put her foot down and also to take a break from her hometown....and yet she still went back not even 24 hours later....hmm....

That's totally confusing....